Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Not my best Self

I'm a wreck. Or, I have been a wreck for about the last week. Things are actually looking up though. For a few days I really wasn't sure what was wrong. I felt panicked. Anxious. Stressed. There really wasn't any good reason for it, but it was there. I have been taking a lot of pictures in the last week. I took Rachel & Andrew out, Ashleigh's Bridals, our family pictures, Halloween costume portraits, and my Aunt's family pictures all in less than a week. Like I said, stressed. So I took a break. I've really tried not even to be on the computer the last two days, and I feel better. I've spent a lot of time organizing and cleaning our apartment and it has been very therapeutic. Let's just say, I am the master at fitting our stuff into Rachel's bedroom closet. It is packed, but I fit it all in. So proud. I still have a very long list of things I have neglected to do (insurance for example), but I'm getting there. I still have a lot of pictures to proof, but I'm taking it slow. I've sure learned that I really can't do the whole "professional" photographer thing right now. I would collapse. Hobby? yes. Career? I don't think so. Don't worry though. You can still ask me to take your child/family pictures and I will say yes. I still love it. Just not in such large quantities.

4 comments:

Sabrina said...

You had me fooled. You seem to handle your stress well, at least in public, because I would have never known you've been a wreck. I am happy to help if you ever need it though, so please let me know!

Lauren & Aaron said...
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Aaron & Lauren said...

Let me know if you ever want a babysitter while you go get some quiet relaxation time. I'm more than happy to help out. Love you Jess!

Buckholts said...

I'm sorry you've been having a bit of a hard time lately. I've been overwhelmed lately too, so I thought I'd chime in here. You're probably feeling a lot better than when you wrote this, but I think it's so easy to put pressure on ourselves and become overwhelmed. You just had a baby. You have a darling and rambunctious two year old. Those are pretty amazing feats in and of themselves. The fact that you can do ANYTHING else at all shows how well you handle things. I think your pictures are great and even getting better, and I know you are a fabulous mother. Sorry you haven't felt your best. Hang in there.
-Laura